Alright, I feel queasy that he might be able to "backtrace it" [-you dun goof'd guy reference.] this page.
I don't know, but hurrgh.
All that has happened, has happened.
Tony was awesome, but he's just that. Awesome. I can't stick to him because he's an unstable molecule.
And now, as you can see, the love of my life, and basically somebody worth dying for, somebody worth living with has descended.
All cool-awesome-like.
If only I have met you earlier in a different context of friendship, maybe bumped into each other [ahahaha, tough luck, kid.], or maybe just hang out together.
But aghh.
What. I. Would. Do. For. Him.
IMMENSE.
Well, I hope if he reads this, oh my God, I hope he understands.
No, I have never fitted in with anybody else aside from my old friends; Kelsi, Dela and Rene. And you, of course. Definitely you.
I attempted myself to a guy because you were already somebody's at that time.
Well, that relatioship went on for a very long ime.. until I moved back to my home country. He even made his sister say to me via phonecall, that there is no such person living around here.
Damn, that was the time when I truly broke down, thinking why didn't I let this useless guy go, and turned towards you.
I know, it's a pretty dumb story, but life has its errors, and this is probably one of the biggest,aside for the fact that I didn't love my dad as much as he deserved when he was alive. Huh.
Now, if anybody else is reading this, I am having relationship problems due to the fact that we're not as close as we were[location-wise]. I'm attempting to save money, a dollar a day[hopeless, I know..] just to hold him in my arms, and say, "life goes on, so keep your heart clean, keep your chin up. I'm here."
Uhh. This is proably the longest post I ever posted, but I don' really want to use blogger much from now on.
If you still want to waste your time reading my endless rants, it's on tumblr: http://intergalacticplasticwrappers.tumblr.com/
Well then, I'll catch you when you fall.
